Dear Unrepairable Circus
2022.10.22
Dear Unrepairable Circus,
I need to rest. I have been resting for more than a year now, and still I’m not done resting. This means I must be very tired, or you must be very exhausting.
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Maybe my need for rest has more to do with you-as-I-knew-you ending and me becoming undone in that process of your seemingly endless ending. Things got very messy, your ending very slow. I became open-ended along the way. Now I need to rest. I need (to) repair. I need to stitch, to lace, to embroider.
I’m letting go of the desire to repair you.
Maybe you are unrepairable.
Or I am just tired.
Maybe we both need rest.
Love,
Bauke
